Tomorrow's a big day. Lets hope i don't choke under the pressure..... :-/. Cya all at the dance.
God Bless,
johnnyd.
goodSo yea... its turning out to be one of those nights... The nights where you not only can't sleep, but you don't want to sleep. The few nights where you wanna stay up and think out your life. That's where i come up with all these deep thoughts and stuff. I hate these nights. Its like a smack in the face right before you go to sleep. So here's the BIG IDEA for the night for all of you:
So you do all this good stuff, and you're just like "Hey, karma's a bitch, but i did good stuff so i should be rewarded." right? we all think that... well guess what. The sooner we realize that we should just not want anything in return, then we'll be happier. Cause when you expect something good to happen to you for a good deed you did, then you're going to be crushed if it doesn't happen. So you have expect nothing in return. Expect nothing, be dissapointed in nothing. That's the key to happiness. And don't be fake about it either. 'Cause then you're only cheating yourself and you're still miserable. Honestly, you can't hide anything from the people who are close to you, cause they'll find out sooner or later. And boy will they be pissed if its later. Especially if its heard from somewhere else... So now you're asking me, "But what if Karma actually works for you?" Well then you're a lucky son-of-a-bitch and you're as rare as a terrorist having tea with the president. Honestly, it doesn't happen. Everyone expects something in return but "no good deed goes unpunished." you do something, and then it bites you in the ass. Why does it hurt so much? Cause we expect good things to come in return. The quicker we realize that, the faster we'll be happier. Enough said.
So there's that. Comment if you wanna. Agree or disagree. Idc cause i know i'm fucking right on this one. My dad's always just like "Why do you always argue with me?" and i always respond "Cause i know i'm right." I don't say it out of my ego. I say cause its true. That didn't help my argument, but its the best i got. There's another thought... Oh fuck i just forgot it. hahahahaha wow i suck. Anyhoo, if i'll remember it i'll post it in here. It was a good one too. This is like, deep thoughts sessions with John. w00t. I love it. Of course, i'm no Dr. Phil, and certain people are very very happy with that one. W/e, not gonna talk about that one. Its not worth it right now. My inside has some frustration and anger. W/e works... i'm gonna go back and try to fall asleep. i'll talk to you all later.... Peace out.
God bless,
johnnyd.
Pretty sure i'm going to bed tonight feeling like shit...
If you dont' know why, you should
Well if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight....
johnnyd.
Chicago was nice. It felt good to get away, however my problems sort of "followed" me to chicago. Happened to be on the same bus as me too. Grr... I wanted to just forget all about that. As for some people. They need to face reality. They need to see what they don't want to see, the truth. It stares them in the face and yet they don't see it. They're covered by sinful eyes and seductive blankets. How can they not see the wrong? How can they be so blind? Answer me this. Biggest mistake of their lives is not wanting to see the bad things as well as the good. Its a symbiant circle where we all must learn. When we see the bad, we prevent the effects of the bad. However, the more we stray away from the sight, the deeper the burden shall be. So a warning to all of you, good and bad alike, do not be blindfolded by the material things of the world. We must see the bad, in order to see what the good shall be. For those who refuse to do this, i pray that you will be in the least amount of pain possible...
johnnyd.
What's the worst thing I could say
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Well if we carry on this way
Things are better if I say
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight....
^^^You should know what the significance of this song is by now....
johnnyd.
